The Final Judgment

March 3, 2010


I remember the time when I had my On-campus practice teaching at Naga College Foundation where I was too busy and serious with my work. Sometimes I did not attend the weekly meeting with our supervisor since I was always having my straight teaching. I did not want to waste hours; instead, you will find me totally sprained in making my instructional materials very creative.

My sister always got upset every time she saw me still awake that wee hours of the night. She would asked me, “if only I know what tough job a teacher do, perhaps, I was one of those people who will oppose your decision of becoming a teacher.”

Hush! To tell you, I have this realization that being a teacher is not easy. It requires commitment or else you will be a teacher of no choice. Am I right?

Some said, “feel na feel ko na raw ang pagiging teacher”.

Like what I had quoted on my first journal, “if you fail to prepare, you are preparing yourself to fail.” Because of this maxim, I am guided on a right path for what are expected to a teacher-to-be like me.

I remember the final observation for the On-campus teaching, I was able to get a high grade during the evaluation. Actually, I wasn’t expecting for such gratifying grade. I was not aware of for that day as the final observation for student teacher. All I know, as I saw Dr. Artuz. I decided to grab the opportunity to have my final demonstration. Anyway, I was prepared not because it was the final day of observation but for the reason that I am always prepared. Deep inside, I deserved it.

I don’t want to have it in mind to be like those teachers who made their lesson more effective and efficient just because a supervisor or a principal will observe them. I want it to be a ‘habit’. It was just a flashback. Actually, my focus this time is about the final judgment of our Off-campus practice teaching. I just couldn’t stay away from thinking my wonderful teaching during my On-campus practicum.

Three days before our supervisor announced the scheduled day for final demonstration, my heart couldn’t stop from being uneasy. Now that I have more days to prepare for it, this was the time were I felt nervous. I don’t know why.

Here we go. It was near 11:00 am when I started my teaching demonstration. The topic was about figurative languages such as simile, metaphor and personification. Perhaps, the complexity of the subject matter became the reason why I felt this nervousness inside. I thought it would be very hard for them to understand the topic. Because of this, I have to be very creative to make it accurate in their level of understanding.

Finally, I was able to breathe thoroughly. I lose my anxiety after the teaching demo. Thanks God.

The result was quite good. On my On-campus, I got 4.84; but now, 4.76. It’s okay. Our supervisor said I had lost my energy and my oral communication appeared that I lack self-confidence.

I lost my energy. Perhaps, it was because of too much fatigue. When it comes to oral communication, I really don’t know whether my voice is loud enough or not. This was because I had a swollen left ear two days before. This made me unable to hear a little bit louder.

Anyway, I had passed over this challenge. I maintained good grades. Do you remember my journal on our On-campus where I had written about my worst interview? I ended it with a challenging thought, if I couldn’t make it that time due to difficulty in hearing; I will strive harder in my teaching to prove how I can make a difference. And now, this is it!